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(Day 1) ==> Adelle: Enter

Your name is Adelle Pteroi and today is shaping up to be a pretty AWFUL DAY! Between meteors hitting the planet and the tremors you can feel from the shore as they land into the ocean, you are not looking forward to the waves that will eventually hit, sooner or later. Which is perhaps why you have shuffled along to get Selach started on your entry, as soon as you managed to confirm Lyn was not dead.

It's not even 10 minutes later that you're making weird, vaguely screechy noises because somehow the outfit you were working on has ended up in your kernelsprite. Your despair over the hours of work on the lilac embroidery on it that is now wasted is INDESCRIBABLE.

This is perhaps an exaggeration, but you are still quite upset about it.

}!{ Nooooo!!
}!{ Selach, what happened?
}!{ That was five hours of needlework!
}!{ Five!
}!{ Oh goodness and now it's all just -- sitting there on a game construct that can't even talk.

DANDYSPRITE is kind of hovering uselessly in a corner, considering it's really just a bunch of clothes with a tail that moves vaguely to give the impression of there being an actual person.

...

You had been expecting quite a few things to happen; after everything it was hard to not believe that anything could happen at this point. You simply weren't expecting to end up in a place with absolutely no water, and to see your lusus flop around on the floor desperately as you watch him struggle to breathe. Your composure slips away from you rapidly as it sinks in that there is nothing that either you or Selach can do about this.

...Well, there is ONE THING you can do.

It's another 15 minutes before you finally come back online. Not that you plan to stay on for long.

-- elegantSyringa [ES] has signed on. --

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}!{ I'm not worried that you'll hate me.
}!{ ...Though I would rather if people weren't afraid of me.
}!{ Except when I actually want them to be, I suppose.

Edited 2013-08-13 12:46 (UTC)

well if it helps
im already afraid of pretty much eVerybody as a general rule
iVe neVer been able to afford not to be
but im still a lot less afraid of you than almost anyone else
and i dont think thats gonna change if i know what youre really like
mostly cause youVe neVer been like that to me and youVe had plenty of time and reason to be
so if you haVent directed it at me yet youre probably neVer gonna

Edited 2013-08-13 12:50 (UTC)

}!{ Oh.
}!{ ...Thank you for telling me that.

which part is news to you

}!{ None of it, I suppose?
}!{ It's always nice to see you say things like that, regardless.

you really haVe that many people scared of you?

}!{ Ah, well...
}!{ I'm not so sure, with the current group we have now?
}!{ But I've had many afraid of me before.
}!{ And even if they weren't exactly afraid, per say, I have met many who were only nice and polite because of my blood colour.
}!{ It is...

You don't finish the sentence, because you're not sure what to label the feelings you have on this subject. It is just the idea of people only treating you with anything like respect and friendliness because you are higher on the hemospectrum is quite...upsetting? You don't want insincerity. You don't want..."fakeness", or falsity, from the people you talk to even when you know you ultimately have no real say in that matter. You don't want fear, except from the ones you have deliberately chose to strike terror into, and you like to think you are a reasonable troll with good reasons for doing so.

You don't want quite a lot of things that come with being a highblood, now that you think about it. Or at least, those are the things that come with being a highblood that you have experienced.

so what
you prefer people like me who are just generally assholes regardless of blood color?
i dunno if thats really an improVement man
and being a lowblood and people talking down to you and giVing you shit has to be worse than fake niceness

i guess that explains why youVe been talking to ilya so much though
hes actually nice and polite in general
and since hes human its obViously got fuck all to do with caste
dunno why you eVen still talk to me now that youVe got somebody like him to chat with honestly
like THAT is a genuine improVement

}!{ At least then I feel it's honest.
}!{ And I know it could be worse, it's just...
}!{ Upsetting, I suppose.

}!{ I like talking to you, so why should I stop just because I can talk to Ilya, or any of the other humans?

yeah i get what youre saying
like how you dont actually matter
just your caste does
i mean obViously its worse for lowbloods but i guess eVen highbloods get some drawbacks from it

and i dunno
i just figured that if its the honest opinion thing you like about talking to me
and you can get that from ilya without him eVen being an asshole
then youVe got a better replacement already and you wouldnt bother putting up with my shit anymore cause you dont haVe to

Edited 2013-08-13 14:14 (UTC)

}!{ Is it too much to ask that I wanted my relationships to be based on what we thought of one another as actual people?
}!{ And on that note, I don't just replace friends, either.

sometimes on alternia it is
or was
i guess that wont be a problem anymore though

actually you know what else i realized
i didnt really need to yell at you about the whole pail-filling thing awhile back
looks like nobody has to worry about that anymore
so i guess you dont haVe to compromise anything after all

also i dunno
i mean youVe got a lot of friends
eVen more now that the humans are in the picture
i figured maybe i was less a friend and more like
the best you could get as far as honesty you could trust with trolls?
so that once you found better you wouldnt really need to bother with me anymore
cause instead of haVing to make do youd actually haVe something worthwhile
i mean i guess the message here is that you must like me for more than just the honesty thing
but i cant imagine for what or why

}!{ A shame.

}!{ Ufufufu, well.
}!{ I suppose a lot of problems related to Alternia and its society are essentially moot now.

}!{ Please don't make it sound like I am wasting my time talking to you.
}!{ If I really thought that I would have stopped talking to you a long time ago.
}!{ You are interesting to talk to! A good conversationalist.

for somebody with lots of friends you sure haVe low standards
not that im complaining really
you and cero are probably the only trolls i really like talking to
and dont feel afraid of
its not like id want you to ditch me
i just wouldnt be surprised

}!{ Ufufufu.
}!{ Should I feel flattered?
}!{ But no, I like talking you, truly.

damn right you should
youre the only highblood iVe eVer really liked talking to
much less haVent really been afraid of
like with cero its nice but not super unusual
but with you it hardly eVen makes sense

and uh
thanks
im glad you do

You feel acutely awkward, more so when you realize you're smiling at the screen.

}!{ Ufufufu, thank you, then.

}!{ So do not sell yourself so short!

please tell me that wasnt meant to be a joke or ill be contractually obligated to take back eVerything i said

but being realistic isnt selling yourself short
i just dont expect people to like most things about me cause well
most people wouldnt
you apparently do
but iVe always said you were weird

}!{ It wasn't a joke!

}!{ You are actually quite likeable, if rather abrasive initially.
}!{ Being friends with you has been worthwhile, and I like to think I have good taste.
}!{ In any case, being weird makes me stand out, don't you think?

iVe said it before and ill say it again
being weird isnt bad
just weird
also if im really that likeable not many people seem to think so

}!{ Mmm, well.
}!{ Perhaps they haven't given you a chance?

i dont think thats the problem and i honestly doubt you do either

also i thought you needed to get some rest
i wasnt trying to keep you up

}!{ Ah, right, I really should take a nap...
}!{ I'll see you later, then?

yeah ill be around
like i said be careful
cero told me im not allowed to die
and neither are you

}!{ Did he now?
}!{ I will certainly try not to!
}!{ Good night, Lyn.

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artful_transgressor - 2013-08-13 22:46 (UTC) - Expand

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