(Day 1) ==> Adelle: Enter

[elegantsyringa]

Your name is Adelle Pteroi and today is shaping up to be a pretty AWFUL DAY! Between meteors hitting the planet and the tremors you can feel from the shore as they land into the ocean, you are not looking forward to the waves that will eventually hit, sooner or later. Which is perhaps why you have shuffled along to get Selach started on your entry, as soon as you managed to confirm Lyn was not dead.

It's not even 10 minutes later that you're making weird, vaguely screechy noises because somehow the outfit you were working on has ended up in your kernelsprite. Your despair over the hours of work on the lilac embroidery on it that is now wasted is INDESCRIBABLE.

This is perhaps an exaggeration, but you are still quite upset about it.

}!{ Nooooo!!
}!{ Selach, what happened?
}!{ That was five hours of needlework!
}!{ Five!
}!{ Oh goodness and now it's all just -- sitting there on a game construct that can't even talk.

DANDYSPRITE is kind of hovering uselessly in a corner, considering it's really just a bunch of clothes with a tail that moves vaguely to give the impression of there being an actual person.


...

You had been expecting quite a few things to happen; after everything it was hard to not believe that anything could happen at this point. You simply weren't expecting to end up in a place with absolutely no water, and to see your lusus flop around on the floor desperately as you watch him struggle to breathe. Your composure slips away from you rapidly as it sinks in that there is nothing that either you or Selach can do about this.

...Well, there is ONE THING you can do.

It's another 15 minutes before you finally come back online. Not that you plan to stay on for long.

-- elegantSyringa [ES] has signed on. --

Comments

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ I appear to be in a city of sorts.
}!{ I can simply stay in my hive for tonight.
}!{ I'll think about what to prototype, if nothing else my sprite is a good distraction as it is right now.

[artful_transgressor]

alright
if youre safe enough i guess it isnt a super high priority
later adelle
be careful alright

and uh
sorry for making you talk about this
you obViously didnt want to and i had to keep asking

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ No, it's fine.
}!{ I suppose I would have needed to actually tell someone about what happened eventually.
}!{ Though if anyone else had kept asking I probably would have just kept redirecting the topic.

[artful_transgressor]

so why didnt you here
cause you found out my lusus is dead too?

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ Partially!
}!{ Though I suspect there are now a lot more dead lusii.
}!{ Mostly however, I just feel that I can trust you.

[artful_transgressor]

probably
its a shitty thing to haVe in common
but i guess i dont haVe to worry about being culled for it anymore

but yeah i mean
eVen if i werent just generally
not nearly that much of an assbasket that id eVer use that kinda thing against someone
much less someone i actually like
what would you eVen haVe to worry about with me
like what could i eVen do to you if i WANTED to

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ I wasn't thinking about it like that, actually.
}!{ But I'd rather not tell just anyone something as dark and depressing as performing a mercy kill on my lusus and potentially have a breakdown on them.
}!{ It is simply not graceful to do so.

[artful_transgressor]

so what
you wouldnt mind haVing a breakdown on me
or youre less likely to haVe a breakdown if its me youre telling it to
which is it

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ The former, I suppose.

[artful_transgressor]

oh

Well, so much for that. You'd almost thought for a second that perhaps these uncomfortably pale feelings you've been having might actually stand some chance of being returned - that perhaps you COULD offer Adelle something as far as a potential moirallegiance goes. If you helped him control his emotions, that would totally be a pale sort of thing...you think. Honestly, you're no expert on quadrants; mostly you considered the concupiscent ones irrelevant to you, but given your lack of any acquaintances in person you'd never exactly paid a lot of attention to the conciliatory ones either.

But someone simply not worrying about whether they have an ugly breakdown on you or not is pretty par for the course. Of all the people Adelle might want to impress or appear put together and confident in front of, you're probably dead last on the list. You should probably be grateful for the abrupt slap back to reality that you don't actually have anything to offer anyone, in any quadrant. But mostly it just feels like even more depressing knowledge than usual.

i mean yeah
its not like im the sort of person who giVes a shit about grace
and whether or not someones demonstrating it
so i guess that makes sense

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ Well, I suppose that is part of it?
}!{ But it's more that...hmmm.
}!{ I suppose if the others saw how I can be like they might not want to associate with me anymore?
}!{ Or at least, that is what I feel could happen.
}!{ But I like to believe it won't happen with you.

[artful_transgressor]

of course not
although now that youVe said that it makes me wonder if eVen i know shit about 'what you can be like'
i cant remember you eVer flipping out at me before
and you didnt do it tonight either

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ To be quite honest, I hadn't expected that!
}!{ I was quite sure I would have lost my calm much more than I did when you kept asking me and I couldn't make you drop the topic.
}!{ Though it is fortunate, nonetheless.
}!{ I don't like "flipping out" at anyone in general.

[artful_transgressor]

i dont think youVe eVer done it that iVe seen
although cero says you get pretty fucking alarming in flarp
so maybe i should be glad too

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ He is not entirely incorrect.
}!{ Though even in FLARP I remain calm, unless, ah.
}!{ Other players have treated any of us particularly badly.

[artful_transgressor]

do i wanna know what happens when you get uncalm

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ Probably not, when Ceroti already finds me creepy when I'm calm.

[artful_transgressor]

yeah but youre not worried im gonna freak out about what youre really like right
well okay i might freak out
i freak out about plenty of shit
but its not like id start hating you

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ I'm not worried that you'll hate me.
}!{ ...Though I would rather if people weren't afraid of me.
}!{ Except when I actually want them to be, I suppose.

[artful_transgressor]

well if it helps
im already afraid of pretty much eVerybody as a general rule
iVe neVer been able to afford not to be
but im still a lot less afraid of you than almost anyone else
and i dont think thats gonna change if i know what youre really like
mostly cause youVe neVer been like that to me and youVe had plenty of time and reason to be
so if you haVent directed it at me yet youre probably neVer gonna

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ Oh.
}!{ ...Thank you for telling me that.

[artful_transgressor]

which part is news to you

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ None of it, I suppose?
}!{ It's always nice to see you say things like that, regardless.

[artful_transgressor]

you really haVe that many people scared of you?

[elegantsyringa]

}!{ Ah, well...
}!{ I'm not so sure, with the current group we have now?
}!{ But I've had many afraid of me before.
}!{ And even if they weren't exactly afraid, per say, I have met many who were only nice and polite because of my blood colour.
}!{ It is...

You don't finish the sentence, because you're not sure what to label the feelings you have on this subject. It is just the idea of people only treating you with anything like respect and friendliness because you are higher on the hemospectrum is quite...upsetting? You don't want insincerity. You don't want..."fakeness", or falsity, from the people you talk to even when you know you ultimately have no real say in that matter. You don't want fear, except from the ones you have deliberately chose to strike terror into, and you like to think you are a reasonable troll with good reasons for doing so.

You don't want quite a lot of things that come with being a highblood, now that you think about it. Or at least, those are the things that come with being a highblood that you have experienced.